Pan Kaiming | Chares Malaysia
He Stopped Going To School Because of Depression.
In 2014, I had my cecum removed because of appendicitis. Later, I realized I could not remember what I read. In addition, I felt inexplicable fear, heartache, and stress, and didn’t sleep well at night.
I searched these problems online and found these were symptoms of depression. Maybe because I desperately wanted to meet the expectations of the outside world and myself, I put a lot of pressure on myself. At that time, I cried a lot when I was in a negative mood. During the first half of the semester, when my mother saw me like this, she asked me to stop going to school.
Bodhi Meditation’s 8.5-Day Health and Happiness Retreat Enabled Me To Hug My Family.
When I heard about the 8.5-Day Health and Happiness Retreat, I felt it might be worth trying, so I attended. I chanted on the third and fourth day. When I chanted, tears fell like tap water. I didn’t know why this happened, as nothing made me unhappy. But my tears just kept coming. After crying, I felt much more comfortable, as if all the dark clouds had disappeared.
At that time, the teacher of the retreat gave us a task: to hug our family. I had never done such a thing. When I hugged my family, I felt it was a big relief for them. At that time, I was really moved. Finally, I didn’t consider myself a burden to them because of depression. At least I would not let them worry about me.
A 7-Day Bodhi Meditation Chanting Class Taught Me Filial Piety
Next, I had time to attend another 7-day chanting class because I was still off school. During the class, I chanted for my parents. In this class, I learned I shouldn’t take my parents’ kindness for granted. Now I can understand my parents’ hard work, so I always think about that before doing anything. I think the biggest gain of attending the chanting class is having learned filial piety.
Thirty-six Prostrations Everyday Enlightened Me
Later, the teacher from my school called to say that I was only one year away from graduation and asked if I would continue to study. I told the teacher I would return to study, but I was not confident. I always thought, “Can I do that?” Then I thought of Grandmaster’s teaching in the chanting class; it was to develop children’s wisdom. Grandmaster said that if you want to learn well, do 36 prostrations a day. So, I did them every day, and gradually, I could remember what the teacher said in class.
In January, when I saw the questions on the exam, I thought, “Crap! I don’t know the answers.” But I still tried to answer all the questions. When I finished, I knew I did not pass the exam, so I didn’t even double–check my answers; I left the exam room. However, I got A+ on all my exams! I couldn’t believe I passed so easily. I was overjoyed.
Bodhi Meditation slowly opened my mind. I hope others with depression can also slowly open their minds with the help of Bodhi Meditation.
The intent of the testimonial is to offer wellness information of a general nature. Individual results of practice may vary.
